Never Say Never!

So I said I would "never" take an SSRI again. Well.....when those bad thoughts hit and you know you are not in a good place then it might be time to reconsider. I in all honesty had thoughts yesterday that I was not the best parent for my children and that I should give them a better chance at life. Crazy right?! Well I fought the drugs and the drugs won. The battle isn't over. I think my mistake was that I tried to take control and I didn't give God the chance. I just assumed he was okay with what I was doing. I never prayed about it and gave him a chance to give his blessing. I just assumed this is what he wanted me to do. Lets just wait and see what God has planned. I know that he isn't done with me yet:)